Lord I feel it, prone the leave the Lord I love.
Lately I have been feeling like Hosea's wife....heartbreakingly cruel, foolishly fickle, and stubbornly unfaithful to the One who loves me best.
When I am still and silent and listening I can hear God speak words of comfort and strength, but I only when I am looking in the right place. God's word is the only place I will find these words. So unless I have hidden these words in my heart or are daily reading them God cannot use this precious gift to calm my heart and soothe my hurts.
Time and time again, lately it seems, more than ever, I find myself distracted....pulled away from the eternal by shiny objects. Many of these shiny objects are not "bad" in and of themselves but they are not what I need, they will never satisfy. They are like chewing gum when my stomach is growling and my hands are shaking from hunger.
And the tragic part is that I know this! I know for a fact that all the things I try to lose myself in...to relax, unwind, veg out...will never give me true rest! Yes, there is a time and place for recreation, entertainment, and the like but they are not what I need when I am feeling overwhelmed.
I long for the day when in heaven my hunger will be completely satisfied and I will no longer be distracted by good things when I am to be pursuing what is best.
Until then I will pray...praying that I would be more faithful the the Faithful One, that I would stop settling for good when I should pursue the best, and that I would develop a craving for eternal things.
Until then I will continue to mess up and will bring my broken and hurting heart to God in repentance.
Until then I will remember that He who began a good work in me will work it through to completion.
Joining with Emily and others as we lay our brokenness down at the foot of the cross at Imperfect Prose