Winter snow and filtered light, biting cold and longer nights all seem to pull me in close to hearth and home. Hibernation feels good and rest seems to lead to reflection. Perhaps this is why we make resolutions this time of year. And so with another year behind me and cold winds keeping me from staying outside, I let the reflection begin....
Last year was a year of flying by the seat of my pants and floating with the wind, changes came in fast and hard and for the most part I kept my head above water, by the grace of God. It is by His grace that many of the "good ideas" I had seemed to prosper and the not-so-good ideas didn't sting as badly as they could have. Gazing at the mirror and seeing the reflection of the last year I can see God's fingerprints and gentle nudges keeping me from falling off the cliffs I would get myself onto. God is so good and has given me oh so much more than I deserve. Glorious sunsets, smiling faces, laughing hearts, heart-tugging chats, encouraging words, healthy family, answered prayers, lapping ocean waves, and consistent employment are all blessings that I recognize as the work of God alone.
With reflection, comes re-grouping and re-thinking, planning for the year to come. My prayer for this year is that I live it more intentionally. I want to pursue God more consistently and thoughtfully; to use and grow my gifts more intentionally; and write and create more regularly; and to live more peacefully.
God has given me much and I want to do much with it. Looking back I feel like with the spontaneity came waste. Not enough waste to discount the lessons learned or blessings received, just enough to make me ponder...what could I have done if I had not wasted my time or talent or treasure.
Praise God that He is in control and not me!
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