ever have one of those days when you feel like you're running around like a chicken with it's head chopped off?
that life is just sort of happening to you instead of you being able to control any of it
that there just aren't enough hours in the day, or days in the week for that matter?
it has been one of those weeks...no months....no summers for me
At every turn I feel pulled in a another direction by something good to do
even vacation has been a bit hectic, something is planned for every weekend and almost every week night
I don't want to say no to any of it....it's all fun things to do or things people I love want me to do
even the idea of quiet time seems like a "to-do" instead of a respite
when I do slow down for sabbath or night I clunk to sleep, no energy or brain power left for thoughtful reflection or mediation
I know that this cycle is unhealthy and that eventually it will have to end, but I just don't want to say "no" to any of it.
I'm definitely having a Martha-type summer, when the plan was to have a Mary-type season
I know that delegation and self-control are needed,
that I must find time to "be still and know that He is God"
right now I feel like my brain is a ball of yarn-snot (you know those tangled knotted clumps that pop out of the middle of a skein of yarn just when you've gotten a rhythm down to crocheting?)
I know that tugging and praying for the best won't untangle it, i must put my work down an focus on untangling the mess before I move forward
I could use a month of Sundays